Wednesday, 19 March 2014

Embracing Me - #Stylesquad, Mahon Point

#Stylesquad Mahon Point

Last week I had an appointment with the Style Squad Ladies in Mahon Point Shopping Centre, Cork.
I had heard it advertised on a local radio station a couple of weeks and applied for an appointment for me and my mother, thinking it would be a nice treat for both of us and also a good way to pick up some tips for free (the magic word
This is an event that the shopping center do for charity every couple of months, the charity for this one was "Dress for Success" so everyone that applies for a make over must donate an item of clothing or shoes that are nearly new and suitable to be worn to an interview. I took something from the "still new with tags still on pile to donate" 

I met the stylists and told them what kind of look I was looking for advise/ tips on and we started from there.
I wanted some advise on casual weekend wear, clothes that would take me from shopping, to lunch with the girls, to dinner and cinema with the boy in the evening. Something that I could throw on and be confident that I could pull it off and look reasonably put together!

They had picked some outfits in my size and had them waiting in the dressing room for me. The outfits had been picked from my email, not from the chat that I had when I arrived, so some of the outfits weren't really "for me" but I happily tried on all the different bits to see if something I would never pick for myself would suit. Now they only took a photo of my final outfit (as you can see in the photo) but I tried on a couple of different outfits also. 
  • I tried a white linen flared leg trouser with the coral top (it aged me and highlighted my belly area)

  • I tried on jeans from next and a white lace River island top (The jeans gave me a muffin top & the top was elasticated at the waist and highlighted my wobbly bits)

  • I tried on a lovely navy dress from Oasis but it didn't sit right on me at all!! 

  • We eventually settled on what you can see pictured below
    • Molly Jeggings - River Island (30e) 
    • Coral Top - The Collection, Debenhams (45e)
    • Cream leather Jacket - River Island (60e)
    • Shoes - Clarks (didn't check the price sorry)
    • Necklace (think it was oasis, not sure) 

Clothes from Mahon Point Shopping Centre

I think the photo of me looks well overall, in reality the top and jacket were the wrong sizes (too small) and didn't sit/fit well on my frame. The shoes I didn't like and were too high for me. BUT you can't tell that from the photo. 

I was then introduced to Aoife from  Peter Marks, we talked hair. I told her that my hair is either in a bun/ ponytail for work/ gym or straightened at the weekends. So she suggested some curls, which I agreed too, I can never curl it properly myself, she done these with the ghd and then pinned the side bits back from my face. Really liked it I must say. 

Hair by Peter Marks

The consultant from No.7 then went to work on my face, I didn't get a list of products that she used (a rookie mistake I know) I do know that she used a BB cream rather than a foundation foundation, she went for a soft smokey eye, using bronzes and brown glitters with just a little bit of black on the corners, and a pinky lipgloss.

Make Up by No.7 consultant

Overall I enjoyed my hour of pampering and advise. I did buy the jeans afterwards and I love them. I'm definitely planning to get a biker style leather jacket also. I had thought that I was "too big" too pull one off but after this experience I've decided that I can wear anything  I want once I wear it with confidence.
A professional photo was also taken of me on the day, I haven't received it yet, so I'm looking forward to seeing myself in a glossy 6 x 4.

This day really was a nice confidence boost and a step in the right direction as I accept my body shape and embrace being me.

They will be doing this again in the Autumn  I was told and I will definitely be booking another appointment.
Any Cork girls out there, I would recommend you do the same.  

**This is not a sponsored post, nor was  I asked by Mahon Point or anyone else to write this blog post about my experience. **

Monday, 17 March 2014

St Patrick’s Day Nail Art - 5 Shades of Green

St Patrick's Day Nails

St Patrick's Day has arrived again, and it has a special meaning for me in terms of nail art because it was the first time that I ever attempted nail art J

Here are links to my  Paddy’s Day nail art from last year.

  1. Pots of Gold
  2. Leprechaun belts
  3. Spotty Tri-colour & Shamrocks

Admittedly I didn't give myself a lot of time to get creative or inventive. I went through my polish collection to find how many shades of green I was in possession of.
I found bout 7/8, I’m not a huge green wearer, so this was a lot for me, unfortunately 2 polish's were dried up in their bottles :( and so have gone to polish heaven (or the bin)

I couldn't decide which shade would be best to use, and so decided that since I had 5 shades and 5 fingers……. Well you can guess how that panned out.

So here are my 5 shades of Green, they all needed 2 coats and I topped them all off with Seche Vite Top Coat

St Patrick's Day Nails

St Patrick's Day Nails

St Patrick's Day Nails

What do you think of these shades? I would be more inclined to choose the darker colour I think if I was to do a full mani of Green. I Like the ring finger Green tho as a Paddy's Day green as it reminds me of Shamrocks the most (random I know)


Thumb               - Rimmel London Pro -361 Mermaid Green  (Dealz 1.49)
Fore Finger        - Catrice -  35 Petrolpolitan (Sam McCauley’s 1.79)
Middle Finger     - Sally Hansen – 450 Fairy Teal (Dealz 1.49)
Ring Finger         - NYC – 298 – High line Green
Baby Finger        - Avon Speed dry – Don’t be Jaded

Are you a fan of this colour? Will you be sporting Green for the weekend that’s in it or wetting the shamrock?

If you do attempt some Paddy’s Day nail art, I’d love to see.. leave your link below 

*source google images

Monday, 10 March 2014

Weight Update

**Source Google Images**

****Warning, this post is all over the place, so if you fancy a stroll though my random mental thoughts, read on****

I’m a bit stuck at the moment and I’m finding it hard to find the words to begin to explain where I am at!!
My heads all over the place, I want to loose weight and I want to be fit and healthy and happy, but at the same time I’m tired of the never ending struggle.

I’m sick of the constant battle/ obsessing/ thoughts with myself on the what I can and cannot eat.
I’m a firm believe in the fake it till you make it mode that I sometimes use to get my mojo going and to curb my over eating.

However, my will power has been AWOL for a while now and although I’m full of good intentions, I make food plans, book exercise classes etc,
I’m finding that I’m very easily swayed at the moment. I’m eating my 3 good and healthy meals in the day but I’m also giving myself permission to have all the other extras that I worked so hard last year to cut out. Instead of smiling and saying “no thanks” when offered anything other than a cup of tea I find myself accepting the cake/ biscuits/ chocolate that’s being offered to me and going back for more!

I've been avoiding writing a post because I’m not sure what this means for me at the moment! I kept telling myself that once I've had one total good week, then I’ll come back and be on the wagon and start posting more often. But it hasn't happened!! I've gotten to day 4 and then given in a had a **creme egg (*insert whatever’s going) with my cuppa as a “treat” for being so “good”

But for now, I’m tired!!! Its been 5 years this month since my weight loss journey really began for me and I truly am a different girl to the once who started this quest/journey way back then, physically and mentally. I have made a lot of lifestyle changes. (see photos here

Yes I’m frustrated that after 5 years I am still no where near my goal/aim and that’s all on me and my yo-yo way of doing things. I’m still my own worst enemy and worst critic, but I think we’re all guilty of being very hard on ourselves. My point is tho ( I do have one I promise) I think its time that I accept my body and myself for who I am right now, yes I’m a work in progress.. but that’s how it has to be, and I need to embrace this fact rather than living in denial and avoiding mirrors. (ye read the post about my meltdown over my birthday outfit last month)

I feel like I've missed out on a lot of things over the years because I've allowed my weight issues to rule me and my life.
I've put so many things on the long finger and told myself that I’ll do that when I’m slim. I've missed out on nights out and events because “I’d nothing to wear”  I've avoided going to places for fear I’d be the biggest person in the room and people would stare.  I realize that all of these “things” are my issues and all in my head, but at the same time theses thoughts/ fears have been holding me back.

So I've decided to try and embrace me for now and basically get over myself and start enjoying my life as I am right now. I’m not getting any younger and life is short.

By accepting that loosing weight will be on ongoing theme in my life, I hope that I’ll be more accepting of myself.. I know that I can continue to loose weight and still enjoy myself. ( I just decided that I couldn't, for no reason at all!)

**Source Google Images**

I haven’t completely throw in the towel just yet tho! Yes, I’m eating cake almost every day BUT I’m exercising regularly too.. I’m really half assing things for now and I seem to be almost maintaining. I’m up and down the same few pounds since the new year.

Jan +2

Feb -1.5

Mar +1

I don’t know if any of you can even make sense of this post!
I do want to loose weight, but I’m not willing to commit myself to it 100% at the moment!! I know I’m the only person that can fix this and I’m sure I will…..

I know that this is something that I will struggle and fight with for my whole life and I’ve accepted this to be my fate. 

Friday, 7 February 2014

Turning 30!!

Hey Guys,
I hope yer all keeping well, after my little rant in last weeks post (see here) I thought that I had better update ye on the dress saga that occurred and of course my partaaay.
Those of you that are regular readers of the blather over on will already be up to date with my tale!!

So the last time I blogged I had  bought a dress that "would do" and I was waiting for 2 dresses to come in the post. Both dresses arrived and have been returned since, but I'll tell you anyways.
The first dress was a pink peplum style dress from Littlewoods, the material was like  wet-suit / scuba diving gear and did nothing for me..
The second dress was from New Look, a pretty coral lacey skater style dress (I thought it would be perfect because I have LOADS that are similar) however cute the colour of it was, it was not nice on me, it was stitched across the waist for some reason and kind of cut me off across the middle (no thanks) and it was also slightly too short!!

So on Thursday evening I tried on my 2 dresses for the mammy to see which I would go with, so that I could decided on all my other bits (bag, shoes, hair & accessories) I had a mini fashion show at home for the family, even had my mum take photos on my phone, so I could see how they looked on camera, rather than just in the mirror (vain? moi?  nah.. just paranoid)

The lacey dress was deemed too short and the other dress that I thought "would do" definitely would not!!
It was agreed that both were "Rotten on me"
This happened on Thursday evening at 9 pm!! I asked was it too late to cancel my party (booked for Saturday night) I was told that yes it was!!!  I was very upset and very panicked/ sickened at the thoughts that my party was in under 48 hours and I had nothing NOTHING to wear!!

I went to work on the Friday morning after a sleepless night and when asked was I all set for my Birthday weekend/ party, I broke down and told them what was after happening and how I had no dress and no time to go find one!! I think I cried for most of the day (this is a big deal as I never cry.. ever)

The boss agreed to give me and one of the girls an extended lunch break (he actually told me to take the rest of the day off but  I didn't hear him cuz I was crying!! oops)
Off to town we went, I didn't think I'd find anything as I had been to town the previous weekend. Went into a few shops and tried on a few  bits but nothing felt right or was sitting right on me... Until...

I was in the changing rooms in Dorothy Perkins, loosing fate and running out of time, when the sales assistant asked my friend if she could help her. My friend explained that I was in the changing room having a melt down because it was my birthday tomorrow night and I had nothing to wear.

OMG, she was LOVELY. she came in to me, to see what I had already tried on, then went back out to the shop floor and came back with a few dresses, told me to keep an open mind and try them on. 2 dresses later I had found a dress that made me feel lovely, I started to calm down a little, the SA and my friend agreed that it was really nice on me, then the SA went and got me some shoes and a bag to go with the dress, so that I could get a better picture of how I'd look in the dress.
It transformed the dress form a nice casual day dress to a party dress.. I was getting excited and I was thrilled that I was sorted more or less in one shop.
I bought the dress, bag and shoes in Dorothy Perkins. The SA even at this stage told me to bring everything back if I happened to find something nicer while I was in town looking. I didn't. I stopped looking after that, we went to one other shop to get me a black blazer to complete the look and I was done and dressed.
The sense of relief going back to work was unreal!! And the urge to cry had finally stopped. Of course the big red puffy face followed me for the rest of the evening.
I had my spray tan on Friday evening, went home and painted my fingers and toes in preparation and was starting to come back around to the thought of having a party/ turning 30. It was all gonna be ok.

Saturday morning was wet and wild, but I had a busy day ahead of me. I weighed in first thing, I was down 2lbs ( I took this as a good sign) and my once swollen face was back to normal. I went and got hair and make up done, a little "me time" it was lovely and I have to say the girls done an amazing job on my head, I wouldn't have know myself. The only bad thing that happened was that one of my giant balloons the big 3 burst before I got it to the pub.. A quick call to the boy and that was sorted.

I was a nervous wreck come 8 pm when the party started, but a few drinks helped and all my friends came early to be there and support me. its fair to say I got a bigger turn out than I expected and all the important people were there to wish me well. It ended up being a fab night and I got so many compliments on my dress and hair & make up that I felt lovely by the end of it.

It was a great night but I'm so glad its over, I was so stressed and upset in the days before it!!! I honestly don't think I'd ever have another party after this. And I also don't want to see another shop for a long time.
I don't know what I would have done if it hadn't been for the sales assistant in Dorothy Perkins.

I'm definitely feeling my 30 years after all the stress of last week, I'm exhausted from it.
I officially turned 30 on Monday and am happy to report that so far its been drama free..... lol

Have any of ye ever had a meltdown like I did? Isn't it a horrible feeling having nothing to wear to your own party/ special occasion. I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

For some reason I don't seem to have a single photo of me on my own on the night (how did that happen) so this one will have to do. I mean I cant talk about the dress and the night without showing you the final outcome can I?

**If I manage to get my hands on a better photo, I'll edit this post (you can't see my fab blue shoes)
Me turning 30!

Monday, 27 January 2014

#firstworldproblems - Shopping Issues

I hate shopping, I mean sometimes its OK, but after this weekend I've just had. I can say hand on my heart today that me and shopping have fallen out.

Yes, this is a weight related issue for me and also a first world problem, but hey I'm a first world gal, so its relevant!! So this is a little bit of a bitchy/ ranty pants / pity party type of post!!
And I wasn't going to share it with you BUT after chatting with a few of my friends, it would seem that my stressful weekend of shopping with issues is not just something that happens to me, and for that I am slightly relieved but also a but sad that we have to go through this awful ordeal and not come out the better for it.

As I said this is a total first world problem for me!! My 30th Birthday is next week and with that means that it will be marked with a birthday party, a good idea I thought as I booked it and set the wheels in motion.
That was until I realised that I would be needing to start looking for a lovely dress for the party, since all eyes would be on me!!

And so the hunt began for the perfect dress for me. I had a look online, I had a look in my local shops, and I made a plan that meant that my whole weekend was booked up with dress related shopping, fine I told myself, this needs to be done, so lets do it....

I ordered 2 dresses online (still waiting on those to arrive) On Saturday, I went to a shopping center and to town, walked in and back out of every shop, saw NOTHING that I liked the look of. It was essentially a day wasted!! I went home deflated and upset. I was running out of time and shops!!

So on Sunday, I went shopping again, this time with my mum, (handy to have a second pair of eyes and also a straight talker onside.) We went into shops that I would usually bypass as they would be classed as "skinny shops" in my books and indeed a few of the sales assistants looked put out when I asked what sized they stocked up too! Not everyones a size 10 skinnie minnie shop assistant   grrrr 

I would say that I tried on close to 20 dresses that day, we basically went around the shops and anything in my size was brought to the changing rooms, I reckon more than half of the dresses didn't fit me, couldn't pull some up over my hips, down over my boobs, tie up the back...
I was getting upset and sweaty in the changing rooms and very very disheartened. I was fit to cry, I just wanted to give up, go home and cancel the whole bloody party!!!

As I say, I tried on close to 20 dresses all in what I would deem to be "my size" and they might aswell have been 5 sizes too small for me! I couldn't even open the curtain to show my mum half the dresses and I got stuck in a few trying to wiggle in and out of them!!

What should have been a fun outing to find a fab dress for my party ended up being a rotten Sunday afternoon, that put me into a really bad mood and head space :( not good at all.

I did at the end of the day find a dress that "will do" and it will I'm sure!! BUT I wanted to go out, browse the shops, pick a few lovely dresses, have a little fashion show and have my pick of what I would feel lovely in on the night of my party!!

Instead I have a dress that "will do" because I couldn't find anything nice, that was in my size and covered my ass (both important things in a dress)

Last night I came home, disheartened, feeling, huge and horrible, I didn't write this post last night because I was too upset and couldn't use my words!!

I just find it very frustrating that you can be a different clothes sizes in different shops. And I'm usually fine with this once I stick to "my shops" and I know what sizes to try on.
I also know that I went shopping at the wrong time because the sale rails are still out and the new collections are "on the way"
I'm also only 3 weeks back into my healthy eating and training, so its admittedly not the best time for me to be shopping, but it had to be done!

So the big 3.0. is looming and I'm dreading it now, not because I'm getting older (yes that sucks) but because I'm afraid that I won't feel nice for my party. The last thing I want is to be super self conscience on a night where all eyes will be on me!! eeek
To try and 'help' me get over myself for my big night I have booked to have a spray tan (cuz life is better with a tan) and also to have my hair and make up done on the day... so hoping that this will take the sting out of my dress upset!!

Have you guys suffered a similar experience? I wonder does this happen to the skinnie minnies of the world!!

As I say, a total #firstworldproblem  **le sigh**

Friday, 10 January 2014

The Post Christmas/ January Hangover

Hey All,

Sorry I haven’t been around, well I have but not blogging!!

The Christmas Hangover has been hitting me hard this week and I’ve been feeling a big negative so I decided not to vent and rant on here and annoy ye all.
I reckon if I had, someone woulda called round to kick me up the hole and I would have deserved it

So here we go. I was not a good girl over the Christmas.  I was full of good intentions, yes.

However, Good intentions did not stop me from eating everything & anything in sight (even when I wasn’t hungry/ didn’t want it/ like it) and eating at crazy times!!

I would usually shrug this behaviour off and throw in an “Ah sure its Christmas” but I don’t deem this to be a good enough excuse for me anymore!
I’ve been doing the dog and now I’m paying for it 10 folds!!

Truth be told, I’m been on a slippery slope for the last month or so and the last two weeks, just highlighted for me how badly I choose to eat when out of my routine and how qucikly I can gain weight,. Its kinda scary.

I went back to work and my routine on Monday. Threw on my usual black work pants and a  jumper and off I went. By 9.30am I was feeling very uncomfortable, my black pants was TIGHT! I mean scary tight like I’d put on the wrong trousers!!  I had a red ring around my “waist” it was that tight and even walking it was tight around the back of my knee’s. I can honestly say I’d forgotten how awful this feels!!  Iwas paranoid for the whole day and felt like I’d worn tights to work rather than my usually (kinda baggy and comfy) black pants!! An 8 hour Wedgie is never good!!

The Food baby I had acquired over the Christmas holidays was not gonna let me forget about it just because I was back to being good.

1. food baby
word of the day: October 13, 2010
when you eat so much, that your stomach looks pregnant
Jeez! I ate so much, I look like I am having a food baby!

Here are some of the other negative things that I could write about but I think you get where I’m going at this stage and how I’m feeling

·         I feel bigger than I’ve ever felt
·         I’m so uncomfortable all the time
·         I’m a little more paranoid when dressing and trying to hide my extra wobbly bits
·         I feel sluggish and crap
·         My skin and hair are freaking  out with me
·         FOOD BABY! Gross!
·         My belt is on the 2nd loop hole  (It was almost into the 4th loop before the Xmas)

But last Monday I was back to my familiar routine, I had a sugar free day and drank LOADSA water, it was needed after all the over eating!!
I’ve been to 3 classes this week to try and do some  “damage control” before my official Post Christmas Weigh in tomorrow 11th January.

But I think your with me when I say that the result tomorrow won’t be a good one! But it will be a new start for me and DOWN DOWN DOWN from here!! It has to be!!

Just thought I’d keep ye guys updated. I’m back and I’m on a mission to succeed.

This is only a minor set back!! Altho it feels like one big Food Baby at the moment **sigh**

Stay tuned, to find out what I have planned for myself

Tuesday, 31 December 2013

NYE NOTD: Rimmel- Precious Stones - 001 Diamond Dust

Rimmel- Precious Stones - 001 Diamond Dust

More bling and glitter as promised, what more could you want at this time of the year?? :):)

This is a fun polish to wear if your heading out for New Years Eve..

Let me introduce you to my friend.....

Rimmel- Precious Stones - 001 Diamond Dust.... I hearted this polish long before I ever saw it with my own eyes... So I couldn't WAIT to get it on my pinkies.. I reviewed/ showed off its sister on the blog here

Rimmel- Precious Stones - 001 Diamond Dust
It took me two goes of application of this to manage to get photos so that i could show you.

The first time it took 3 coats to make it opaque and I didn't bother with a top coat.. .BIG MISTAKE..
I done my nails before bed, woke up and they were totally chipped!! Not good!! 

Take 2, I used base coat, 2 coats of polish, followed by a topcoat for good measure.. I took 2 photos that evening in the car (just in case) thankfully it lasted this time and took the rest of the photos the following day at lunch time in the proper light...

I took A LOT of photos of my nails with this on trying to catch the glitter in different lights... 
Are you ready to see all the photos???

Rimmel- Precious Stones - 001 Diamond Dust
Rimmel- Precious Stones - 001 Diamond Dust
 This polish like is lil sister is lovely BUT I had tip wear almost immediately and chips in less than 24 hours.

BUT if its a quick fix of glitter that your after for a night out over the Christmas/ New Year OR if (like me) you change your polish a lot, then the chippage factor won't bother you too much.
Its a lovely party polish.

Rimmel- Precious Stones - 001 Diamond Dust

Rimmel- Precious Stones - 001 Diamond Dust

These Rimmel polish's cost €5.49 each or are on offer in Boots at the moment in their 3 for 2 range.

Rimmel- Precious Stones - 001 Diamond Dust

These were taken at night in my car pre chippage
Night Shots

Glitter at night